Lately, I've been tossing and turning in my bed. There was this persistent buzzing. It seems the more I ignore it, the louder it would become... "Good lord, what's this noise radiating from the shadowed corner of my fragile mind" I thought.
And so to quote V: ...I, like God do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence..., I came across a special edition of Zone of the Enders 2. It was then that I realised...that noise spawned from the gaming pit of my heart...not just any gaming, but of
HIGH SPEED MECHANOID ACTION!
What started out as an annoyance...grew into wails of desperation...
"...must destroy 60 feet robots...must reach beam rifle..."
I blindly thralled for the hunger, as I slowly but surely inched my mouse cursor to the download tab...and LEFT CLICKED!
"Ben...do not succumb to the darkside. Pixel slaying is pointless...it's just fancy lights...Ben withdraw will you still can...can...can..."
...the dimming voice soon vanished to an echo...and then to a fond memory...a memory of when I still held the whip over The Hungerer...
And then The Hungerer gave the memory the middle finger...
"What form of madness is this?" I cried softly, while I watched the slow ticking green progress bar of the Firefox download box slowly sapping away what's left of my sandwich of a bandwidth... Reason and logic abandoned me as I pondered only about how to run the game which was never meant to be run on a Personal Computer.
"An emulator!"
But how...how am I supposed to run a console game on my PC and at the same time, runs good enough to quench the growing thirst for exploding pixels and screaming Japanese voice actors?
Venturing into the unknown...I sceptically tried it on the best emulator technology currently allows...
"Damn you Hideo Kojima and your awesomely defined 3D environments" I cried silently while my Frames-per-Second fell to 30, already running my CPU on 100% capacity...
Half of me was disappointed and indifferent. But the other half was actually relieved, for the providence of an abandoned ship was starting to appear...
But NO!
My game mongering half would not wade...My eyes started to play tricks. Mechanical arms and made-belief LED eyes permeating from my Liquid Crystal Display monitor was caving in on me.
Amidst the paranoia, the emulator's Frequently Asked Question pdf file began to glow! It was then I discovered that the emulator would run better with DirecX 10...a graphics system my virus breeding Windows XP lacked!
"A hope? ...No, a CHANCE!" I thought.
The only way of ridding myself of this pestilence is to upgrade, nay...is to reformat to Windows 7.Barely escaping the avalanche of Windows XP's incompetence, I installed the new Operating System and updated my DirectX drivers to that of DirectX 11 - more than adequate for the optimum performance of the Playstation 2 emulator!
"The winter is over!" I said to myself, for the nirvana of smooth robot slaying lies in the configuration of plugins and speed hacks that came with the emulator.
Wrong was I to assume the lust could be exorcised this easily...
The FPS rate increased to 40...but no more. Hope was again confiscated by the cruel ghouly hands of Konami...
Again, the providence of returning to the simple life of the World of Warcraft revisited.
With one last paddle of the flailing beast, one last breath of the dying soul, one last run of the juggernaut...I found myself dragged back into the chasm of despairing gamers...
Little did I know what awaited me at the gates of a PS2 gaming forum...
On my last ditched effort to find a salve for my high speed mech action itch, I found an upload of Gundam Seed: Rengou vs. Zaft II Plus on the last page of my search.
"At long last...my salvation is nigh!" I prayed.
Then I remembered... I could not bear to stand the trials of another failure, for the scar of a phailed Zone of the Enders 2 Special Edition run on the emulator proved to be too heavy a nightmare to relive.
And so I YouTubed the quality of running that game on the emulator...
...bandwidth capacity was running low, the walls were closing in, the curtain's closing and the fat lady was about to sing...
"OMG FUCK YEAH!" was the voice I would imagine to hear should the emulator, now run on a Windows 7 with DirectX 11 capabilities, work on the one game that would lead me to my salvation.
And "OMG FUCK YEAH!" I heard.
Alas, the search was coming to an end. The journey has ended when the taming of the beast would finally be done, and the buzzing muted.
I found my logical half growing in strength...and I re-emerged in a veil of greed! I said to myself: Since this fast paced game would work almost perfectly on the emulator, the horizons of possibilities would be endless...
So, at the behest of greed I downloaded Gundam Seed: Rengou vs. Zaft, Mobile Suit Gundam: Federation vs. Zeon, and finally Mobile Suit Gundam: Gundam vs. Zeta Gundam.
Alas...IT WAS NOT ENOUGH!
Thus is the Greed of humans...
But when I saw that Gundam vs. Gundam for the Arcade system was ported ONLY to the Playstation Portable...my gamer heart was thrown into Mount Dhoom along with seeing my favourite-st Gundam X in it
...my dreams of piloting the awesome Gundam X was cast into the fiery chasm from whence it came
Teh Precious...we wants IT...we must have teh Precious :p